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    An Unsustainable Straddle

    I don’t know about you, but recently, I’ve felt very stretched–almost like I’m being pulled in two different directions.

    And you know what I’ve learned?

    It is not fun looking like this man:

    Now, you might be wondering, who is that man?

    That, friend, is Jean Van Damme.

    Are you equal parts intimidated and impressed?

    I know I am!

    Full disclaimer:

    The first time I saw this commercial, the three things that went through my head were…

    1) Wow, I wish I could do the splits.

    2) HOLY COW—THAT’S A MAN! I DIDN’T KNOW THEY COULD DO THAT!

    And…

    3) How did he not rip his pants?

    So if any of you lovely people thought Young Sarah was a font of deep thoughts and moral gravitas, you can think again!

    In fact, it was only recently, upon further reflection (because this is what I do with my free time now 🙂 ), that I discovered the truly valuable point this commercial helps illustrate, and that is this:

    Many of us are on our way to (or already in!) an unsustainable straddle.

    Jean Van Damme style.

    Why unsustainable?

    Well, because if those trucks get too far apart, you’re going to be in big trouble.

    However!

    My hope this week is to help you see that that does not have to be your destiny and to give you some ideas for what you can do to avoid getting stuck if you find yourself caught between two trucks.

    Spoiler Alert! You Need To Pick A Truck.

    Ideally, sooner rather than later.

    But how?

    Well, by asking yourself the following three questions:

    1. Where are the trucks going?
    2. How are they getting there?
    3. Who’s along for the ride?

    These questions are absolutely key for getting you safely out of pants ripping territory.

    Allow me to explain.

    #1 Where Is The Truck Going?

    Destination. Destination. Destination.

    This is the most obvious truck adjudicator.

    If one truck is going to Guantanamo Bay and the other is going to Malibu, you should probably set both feet firmly on the one that isn’t going to a place where they will likely torture and indefinitely detain you.

    Just my recommendation.

    However, hyperbole and literalism aside, you really do need to give some thought to your destination (or goal, if it helps you to think about it like that) because if the trucks you’re straddling have different ends in mind, eventually, they are going to start heading in disparate directions.

    Hello, pants rippage.

    So! You need to select your destination.

    Now, to be clear, this doesn’t mean you can only ever have one destination in your life. Heck no! Odds are you’re going to take more than one trip while you’re earth-side, but in the short term, this just means you need to prioritize.

    So ask yourself, in the here and now, which destination is the most important to you?

    Once you know that, you can choose the truck that will get you there without endangering your loins, pants, or underwear.

    However, let’s say the trucks are, in fact, going to the same destination.

    If that’s the case, you’re off the hook, right?

    No truck selection necessary!

    Wrong.

    Question #2 will prove this to you.

    #2 How Are The Trucks Getting There?

    This is a very important question because while both of your trucks may be headed to the same destination, the way they go about getting there can–and probably will–vary.

    Is life a highway or are you taking the road less traveled by?

    I can’t answer that question for you, but I can (and do!) highly recommend that you sit down and map out your preferred route.

    Are you a straight-shot A to B type or do you like getting lost along the way?

    It’s a good thing to think about because if one truck is like a mission-minded man at the grocery store and the other is looping around like an elephant that’s just been shot with a woo-hoo helping of tranquilizer, you’re probably going to have a preference for one over the other.

    And more to the point:

    Regardless of your preference, the trucks will not be sticking together, meaning that, once again, your pants and loins are in peril.

    So…

    We’ve now established that in the world of truck selection, you not only need to have a destination in mind, you also need to figure out your preferred way of getting there.

    However!

    For the sake of argument, let’s say that the trucks are going to the same place the exact same way.

    Unlikely… but okay.

    On to the final question.

    #3 Who’s Along For The Ride?

    You know the saying “bad company corrupts good morals?”

    I think it can be similarly said that bad company corrupts good travels.

    Think about it.

    Can you imagine the different experiences you would have on a trip with Ted Bundy, The Queen of Hearts, and Joseph Ignace Guillotin versus one with J.K. Rowling, Tim Tebow, and Winnie the Pooh?

    Just to be clear, in truck number one, your head would be seen as a superfluous body part…

    Sign me up for truck number two!

    In all seriousness, though, who’s on the truck with you?

    Because you can have your destination picked out, route set out, and the trip can still go down the tube if the people traveling with you are…

    Shall we say… sub-optimal?

    This doesn’t necessarily mean that they are bad people, just that they might not be the best people for your present journey.

    So assess the occupants of the trucks you’re straddling, and decide which of the two groups you’d prefer to ride with. Importantly, don’t trick yourself into equivocating between the two because I can pretty much guarantee that one is going to be at least somewhat better for you.

    Finally, Let’s Review.

    1. Where are the trucks going?
    2. How are they getting there?
    3. Who’s along for the ride?

    These are the questions you need to ask yourself if you feel you’re being split between trucks because even if you are a bona fide contortionist, the human body has limits.

    You have limits.

    So do yourself a favor and pick a truck.

    Ideally, before you get stuck.

    Good luck 🙂

    Modifying A Masterpiece

    On January 23, 2020, I returned to the Philodemic Society’s hallowed hall for a debate on whether human gene editing should be legalized.

    I didn’t actually get a chance to speak, but do you know what that means?

    I spent the entirety of this last week nitpicking and refining what I would’ve said, and all you lovely folks are now the (un?)lucky recipients.

    You. Are. Welcome.

    Framing Of The Debate

    Definitions:
    – Gene-Editing: Modifying Naturally Occurring Genetic Code
    – Legalized: To Make Permissible By Law

    Key Tenets:
    – While international cases can be referenced, we are primarily discussing legalization in the U.S.
    – This debate is a cost-benefit analysis and not only a discussion on moral imperatives.

    Now, On To What I Think!

    Here’s my thing: when it comes to whether or not we should legalize human gene editing, there’s really one question we need to get our hands around.

    How do we conceive of human beings?

    Broadly speaking, there are two schools of thought and they are 1) the LEGO kit school and 2) the Mona Lisa school.

    What does that mean?

    Well, for those of you who played with LEGO’s as a kid or play with LEGO’s now (no judgement), you might be familiar with one of LEGO’s slogans:

    “If you can dream it, you can build it.”

    No limits. No restrictions. Just you, your LEGO’s, and you go for it.

    That’s one way you can conceive of a human being. 

    We’re just raw materials that can be built and made into anything. The sky’s the limit, and we are endlessly open to customization and modification.

    “If you can dream it, you can build it.”

    On the other hand, you have the Mona Lisa school of thought.

    Have you ever been to the Louvre?

    Seen the Mona Lisa in person?

    In the fifth grade, I was fortunate enough to go the Louvre and be in the same room as the Mona Lisa.

    But I didn’t really see it.

    Glimpse it?

    Yes.

    See it?

    Nope.

    Why?

    Because when I got there, there was this mass of people—probably twenty wide by thirty or forty deep—crowded around the Mona Lisa (which is not as big as you think), and they were boxing me out!

    For context, I was ten years old and about 4’11,” so against the pointed elbows of elderly art enthusiasts and mission-minded Asian tourists, I didn’t stand a chance.

    Eventually, I gave up trying to push my way through and just thought,

    “GOOD GRIEF! I’ll just look at it on the internet!”

    …and I left.

    Art connoisseurs cringe. 

    Sorry!

    But why were so many people wanting to see the Mona Lisa anyways? 

    Well, because she’s a masterpiece (at least, according to wiser, more learned people than me).

    However, while the Mona Lisa might be a masterpiece, she is still subject to the law of entropy, and given time, she will eventually degrade and decay.

    So suppose she gets a tear here or some water damage there.

    What does the Louvre do?

    They ring up an art restorer and say,

    “Hey, can you fix a tear and some water damage on the Mona Lisa?”

    The art restorer says, “Of course!”

    The Louvre ships her out, the art restorer does his thing, and sends her back.

    The Louvre gets the box, opens it up, and voila!

    The tear and water damage are gone!

    But…

    Now the Mona Lisa is blonde, and she’s got Harry Potter glasses on.

    Panic time.

    What happens next?

    At worst, an international crisis, and at best, that art restorer is going to be taken to task for everything he’s worth and then some. His great-great-great grandchildren will probably still be paying the debt off.

    And why is that?

    It’s because that art restorer applied a LEGO kit mentality to a masterpiece.

    You do not modify a masterpiece.

    I believe human beings—in every iteration—are masterpieces.

    Can we be torn? Yes. Damaged? To be sure.

    But what we’re ultimately in need of is restoration not modification.

    If human gene editing is directed towards and limited by restoration, I might be more willing to give its legalization a hearing.

    However, from what I understand, gene editing’s ultimate end is modification.

    Moreover, we, as a society, have an ever growing contempt for any and all limitations.

    What is it Elsa says in Frozen?

    “It’s time to see what I can do/ To test the limits and break through/ No right, no wrong, no rules for me/ I’m free!”

    Question: What does it mean to be “free” when you have the power to manipulate the human gene?

    In their 1969 song “Epitaph,” rock band King Crimson said this:

    “Knowledge is a deadly friend/ When no one sets the rules/ The fate of all mankind, I see/ Is in the hands of fools”

    “If you can dream it, you can build it.”

    Oh, friends.

    We need to think about this.

    We need to think about this carefully.

    I submit that the question of human gene editing ultimately comes down to this:

    How do we see ourselves?

    How do you see yourself?

    Do you see a Mona Lisa or a LEGO kit?

    I beg you to think about it.

    Because if we as a society say that we are no longer masterpieces that need to be restored and say instead that we are just a box of LEGO’s and that there are no rules anymore…

    Is that not a tremendous loss?

    “If you can dream it, you can build it.”

    But it comes at an incredible cost.

    March for Life 2020: Be A Mama Bear

    The theme for this year’s March for Life is “Life Empowers: Pro-Life is Pro-Woman.”

    It took me a minute to decide what I wanted to say about this simply because abortion is often seen as the cornerstone of female empowerment, and arguing otherwise is a quick way to get rhetorically (or actually) kicked clear to Kingdom Come.

    Nevertheless, I think that this case can be made, and I’m going to do my best to make it.

    But to start, I need to first say that I know this is a serious issue.

    Believe me, I do.

    Last year, I made one of the most somber appeals I could for the pro-life position, but since then, I’ve learned that levity has a way of opening people up to things they might otherwise dismiss out of hand.

    Given that I’m not particularly interested in preaching to the choir on this topic, I thought I’d strike a different tune this time around.

    I suppose we’ll see how it goes.

    With all that being said, I’m going to try to flesh out the claim that “Life Empowers: Pro-Life is Pro-Woman” by appealing to the humble bear.

    That’s right. This beauty.

    brown bear sitting on grass field

    So.

    Freaking.

    Fluffy.

    Now, I’d like to start by admitting that the entirety of my knowledge on bears is mercifully second hand. I say mercifully simply because bears of all stripes top the predator lists of North American land animals, and I don’t think a run-in with one would go well for me.

    At all.

    Honestly, probably the lone thing I’d have going for me in a Bear vs. Sarah showdown would be that there just isn’t enough of me to bother eating.

    But regardless, my point is this:

    Bears are immensely powerful and can be incredibly dangerous if you encounter them on their turf.

    Duh.

    HOWEVER!

    According to The National Park Service, human beings actually have little to fear from bears provided they do not do one particular thing…

    Can you guess what that thing might be?

    That’s right.

    teddy bear GIF

    If you see one of these cute, cuddly fluff balls…

    DO NOT TOUCH IT.

    DO NOT BREATHE ON IT.

    DO NOT EVEN GO NEAR IT.

    Why?

    Because if you do any of those things, the likelihood of its mama ripping your face off increases exponentially.

    the office face GIF

    Do you want to go the way of Schrute? I don’t think so.

    But what does any of this have to do with abortion?

    Don’t worry. I’m bringing it back.

    Eventually…

    Bear with me.

    *grins*

    Sorry, I couldn’t help myself.

    Anyways!

    I think we can all agree that while bears can be seriously lethal predators, they are also fiercely committed protectors. Indeed, the times when they are at their most dangerous is when they are acting in defense of their lil’ bubbas.

    Do you see where I’m going with this?

    If not, consider this question:

    What Separates Predation From Protection?

    Obviously, bears can and do do both. So too can people.

    After all, the same claws that can kill can cradle, and the guns that massacre school children also put down terrorists.

    So if power is what they have in common, what separates predation from protection?

    I’d argue it’s direction.

    I know! I know! Where does a girl who failed her driver’s test FIVE times get off talking about direction?

    On my blog.

    Obviously.

    But, in all seriousness, I think direction matters.

    In fact, I think it matters quite a lot, especially when assessing whether predation or protection is more empowering.

    So.

    Let’s assess.

    First up…

    Predation

    From what I can tell, the things that direct predation fall into one of three broad categories: entertainment, desperation, and calculation.

    Now, based on my research, bears are not one of the animals that hunt for entertainment, so we’ll cross that one off our list.

    The other two bear discussing… 🙂

    #1 Desperation Based Predation

    This kind of predation is a doozy because it often leads to drastic, ill-advised undertakings.

    For example, in this video, a polar bear that had not eaten in months, attempted to attack a walrus herd head on.

    Desperate times call for desperate measures, I guess.

    It didn’t end well for the polar bear.

    Unfortunately, that seems, to me, the rule not the exception of desperation based predation.

    It leads to devastation one way or another, either for the prey or the predator.

    Maybe even both.

    And yet, many would say, “Well, when your back’s against the wall, you gotta do what you gotta do.”

    I suppose that could be true.

    But are desperate bears empowered bears?

    I leave that up to you.

    #2 Calculation Based Predation

    Honestly, I think this is probably the most common iteration of predation.

    It’s simple realism, really.

    I mean, in the wild, it’s either eat or be eaten, so if you don’t want to be the eat-ee, you better be the eater.

    “It’s either the walrus or me—not both of us.” -Polar Bear.

    RIP.

    But I get it. I understand.

    However, is calculation based predation really a form of empowerment?

    Eh…

    Put another way:

    If someone or something else must get hurt in order for our bear to get on or get ahead, is that really empowerment on its end?

    Or is that something quite different?

    You decide.

    For me personally, I think every iteration of predation whether it be based on entertainment, desperation, or calculation falls short of empowerment because they are all directed—in one way or another–by things that are more or less quite selfish.

    Sorry to all the bears out there, but for me, there just seems to be something wrong in saying empowerment is driven by selfishness. I mean, if that’s the case, I have to wonder whether empowerment is actually a good thing.

    And yet, I think it is.

    Or, at least, I think it can be.

    But if predation is off the table, what’s left as a manifestation of empowerment?

    Protection

    When it comes to our Mama Bear, protection of her lil bubbas is her NUMBER ONE priority, and I’d argue that there can be nothing more empowering.

    Why?

    Well, because that kind of power is directed by love.

    Selfless, maybe even sacrificial, love, and that kind of love is limitless.

    Think about it.

    But what does that mean for our predation vs. protection empowerment calculation?

    Well, consider this:

    If love is what drives protection, then protection comes from a place of surplus.

    On the other hand, predation, in every iteration, comes from a place of scarcity.

    One gives.

    The other takes away.

    So which person—I mean, bear—is more empowered?

    And what the heck does any of this have to do with abortion?

    FRIEND, WE ARE FINALLY BRINGING IT BACK!

    Six-hundred words later…

    Sorry 🙂

    In all seriousness, though, it is often said that pro-life people want women to be powerless.

    *Sigh.*

    Does this look powerless to you?

    scared bear GIF

    Yeah, no.

    Absolutely not.

    Truly, the LAST thing I want as a pro-lifer is for women to be powerless—I want them to be powerful!

    HOWEVER!

    If there is anything more empowered, more powerful, than a love-driven, selfless, maybe even sacrificial, protector, I’d really like to know.

    Seriously.

    Let me know.

    And most importantly!

    To all the current and future Mama Bears out there,

    I just want to settle the score. You do not ever need to be afraid to say, “I am a woman! Hear me roar!” But please… consider what direction you’re directing your roar.

    If you ask me, it shouldn’t be towards your bubba, Mama Bear.

    baby seating on white textile

    Well, that’s all I have to share on the topic of “Life Empowers: Pro-Life is Pro-Woman.” If you’re still here, thank you so much for reading. I know this is a fraught topic, but I count myself fortunate that I have people in my life with wildly disparate views on many issues. So if you read this, and you’re thinking, Sarah, you’re an absolute loon, I respect your right to your views, but I do hope that maybe even a little piece of this resonated with you.

    If not, there’s always next year 🙂

    I’m playing the long game here.

    Also, for anyone who wants to hear any absolutely amazing presentation of the pro-life (womb to tomb) position, please, please check out Stephanie Gray Connors.

    “We Define Truth”

    On January 9th, 2020, I attended my first Philodemic Society debate.

    The resolution on offer was this: We Define Truth.

    Yeah… That’s a no from me.

    But I figured, Hey! I’ll just go and hear what they have to say, so I resolved to attend my first Philodemic Society debate.

    Hilariously, I was actually intending to write a blog post about what college students think about truth, so I went ready to take notes.

    Little did I know that instead I would be writing a post about being compelled by the Man Upstairs to speak in my sweats in front of a room full of well-dressed, intelligent, debate savvy strangers, and that it would go well!

    Like, really well.

    Friends, I am still riding high on this, and we are almost a week out.

    So without further ado, here’s what went down:

    The Framing of The Debate

    We: Humanity as a collective

    Define: To Determine

    Truth: The state of things as they actually are

    The debate started with two brief keynote addresses, and then we were off to the races as members of the Philodemic Society started jumping in.

    Most of what was said was going way, WAY above my head.

    There was math-talk, science-talk, very technical lawyer-y sounding talk, and I was sat there thinking, “I know they’re speaking English, but I have no idea what they’re saying.”

    My brain was hurting.

    Still, I was determined to have something to say about this debate for you lovely folks, so I went on taking notes.

    About 45 minutes in, I looked down at the page of notes I’d taken, and if you want photographic evidence of just how incoherent my thoughts can get, well, here it is:

    If you’re in the mood to play “I Spy,” try and see if you can find these guys: Nietzsche. Frankl. Turner. Blake. Dawkins. Murray. Chesterton.

    I’d written their names down as reminders of quotes that I know about the importance of truth and the dangers of run-away relativism, and I was prepared to use them.

    Internally, of course.

    And later. Probably much later. Because as much as I wish that I were the perspicacious sort, I am an intellectual slow-cooker.

    I mean, the end result is usually pretty good, but it takes me a minute to get there.

    HOWEVER!

    As I sat there with my page of notes and the names of people I could quote, something strange happened.

    Now, I should preface this by saying I am no stranger to the feeling of pins and needles running down my body. I have a litany of health problems and among them are rather severe paresthesia episodes, so I can say with confidence that this feeling wasn’t that!

    Instead, it was more of a vomit-y, jitter-y feeling that was accompanied by a very real and concrete need to say SOMETHING NOW-NOW-NOW!

    And the part of me that is 1) borderline phobic about public speaking around strangers and 2) had never spoken extemporaneously in front of a crowd before was like, “NO-NO-NO, THANK YOU. I’M GOOD WITH REMAINING SITTING DOWN!”

    Side note: If you’ve read my other “Story Time” post, you’ll know God apparently has something against me sitting down.

    That being said, the Man Upstairs was giving me a pretty big bodily signal that said, “HELLO! I’m telling you to say something here and now, and you can either do it or vomit your guts out. Your choice.”

    The room was honestly too nice to vomit in, so I looked down at my jumbled, not particularly legible notes, and frowned.

    I didn’t even know what to say.

    Still, I sat there and prayed, “God, if you want me to speak, give me the words I need.”

    And I kid you not, three names POPPED off the page.

    It was honestly like a speech had been airdropped into my head, and I thought, “Okay, God. Let’s do this.”

    Showtime

    When the time came for audience participation on the side of the negation, I raised my hand and…

    Was promptly not called on.

    I thought, “Well, this puts a wrench in the plan.”

    I mean, I suppose I could’ve simply stormed the center of the room (God guards the path of the righteous, after all!), but that seemed like a bad idea.

    Again, I appealed to the Big Man.

    “God,” I prayed. “If you want me to speak, let her call on me.”

    And DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED NEXT?

    That’s right.

    The President said, “The guest in red.”

    I stood up, and was reminded of the fact that I was severely under-dressed. But there was just nothing else for that, so into the center of the room I went.

    “Hello, my name is Sarah George. I am a junior in the SFS from Indianapolis, Indiana, and I am about to wet my pants.”

    I didn’t say that last bit, but I was thinking it.

    “Ladies and Gentlemen of the Philodemic Society, we’ve heard a lot about the technical and theoretical elements of truth, but if you will allow me, I’d like to make this personal.”

    I saw a few nods around the room.

    “I’d like to do it by appealing to philosophy,” I continued. “Specifically, I’d like to bring in a collective of five philosophers who’ve published–in our lifetime–numerous philosophical treatises…”

    I allowed a moment of suspense building silence.

    “…and they are the Black Eyed Peas.”

    Room-wide laughter and wood-knocking ensued, and I internally fist pumped.

    “Hallelujah!” I thought.

    Laughter meant they were listening, and I wasn’t completely flopping.

    Emboldened, I went on, embodying one of my personal heroes, Michael Ramsden.

    I began with this:

    “People killing people dying/ Children hurt you hear them crying/ Would you practice what you preach/ Would you turn the other cheek/ Father, Father, Father, help us/ We need some guidance from above/ Because people got me, got me questioning where is the love?”

    I turned, looking around the room of smiling faces, and said, “But this is the part that holds you:

    ‘The truth is kept secret/ It’s swept under the rug/ If you’ve never known truth then you’ve never known love.'”

    There was this kind of murmuring hush which I took to be the Philodemic equivalent of “Oh snap.”

    Oh snap, indeed.

    I had their attention.

    Thank you, Michael Ramsden.

    “They’re absolutely right,” I said. “They are absolutely right because real love does not, indeed cannot, exist in the absence of truth. Real love exists in the presence of it.”

    I looked around the room.

    “We know this to be true. Is there anyone in your life who really knows you? Is there anyone in your life you can turn to and say, ‘You know the depths of my heart, and you love me the same?'”

    I looked around. I really had their attention now.

    “We’re all Georgetown students,” I said. “We know what it’s like to put on a show in the classroom. For an internship. During an interview. To try and get them to love you, but if they knew you–the real you–would they still love you? Do they know you? The true you?”

    I looked around the room and asked, “What do you have in the absence of truth?”

    “In his 1818 poem ‘The Everlasting Gospel,’ William Blake says this:

    ‘This life’s dim windows of the soul/ Distorts the Heavens from pole to pole/ And leads you to believe a lie/ When you see with not through the eye.'”

    “Has anyone ever told a lie about you?” I asked. “Has anyone ever believed a lie about you?”

    I saw a few nods around the room.

    “It sucks,” I said. “It hurts. And don’t you just want to turn to them and say, ‘That’s not true!'”

    More nods.

    “If you’ve been fortunate enough to get this far in life without someone telling lies about you, I am so, so jealous of you.”

    Incredulous titters broke out, and I took that to mean that no one in the room had been spared that experience, which was sad, if not expected.

    “But even if you haven’t,” I hedged. “We all know what lies can do because in the twentieth century lies were told about Jews.”

    There was total silence in the room.

    “In his 1946 book The Doctor and The Soul, Dr. Viktor Frankl, a Holocaust survivor, says this:

    ‘If we present a man with a concept of man which is not true, we may well corrupt him. When we present man as an automaton of reflexes, as a mind-machine, as a bundle of instincts, as a pawn of drives and reactions, as a mere product of instinct, heredity, and environment, we feed the nihilism to which modern man is, in any case, prone.'”

    I felt/heard the President get up behind me, signaling that my time was coming to a close.

    “Uh-oh,” I thought.

    The gavel was coming.

    I kicked my mouth into high gear.

    “‘I-became-acquainted-with-the-last-stage-of-that-corruption-in-my-second-concentration-camp,-Auschwitz.-The-gas-chambers-of-Auschwitz-were-the-ultimate-consequence-of-the-theory-that-man-is-nothing-but-the-product-of-heredity-and-environment;-or-as-the-Nazi-liked-to-say,-‘of-Blood-and-Soil.’-I-am-absolutely-convinced-that-the-gas-chambers-of-Auschwitz,-Treblinka,-and-Maidanek-were-ultimately-prepared-not-in-some-Ministry-or-other-in Berlin,-but-rather-at-the-desks-and-in-the-lecture halls–‘”

    I swung my pen above my head, indicating the beautiful room we were in.

    “‘–of nihilistic scientists and philosophers.'”

    I finished just as the gavel came down.

    My ears were ringing, my heart was pounding, and I’m pretty sure I had pit stains that would put pubescent boys to shame, but I walked back to my seat, and sat down, feeling like I’d just done something that had made God proud.

    If there’s a better feeling in the world, I don’t know it.

    The debate continued on for another twenty minutes or so, but once it ended, people–total strangers–came up to me, all saying variations of…

    “That was amazing!”

    “Your memory is incredible!”

    “That was your first time speaking? Wow!”

    I won’t lie–it felt good. Praise always does 🙂

    HOWEVER!

    I knew in my heart that while those people might’ve thought they were praising me, they were actually praising God.

    I was just a poorly dressed representative.

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    So… my main takeaway from that experience was this:

    In moments where you feel like you don’t know what to say, God will provide the words AND make the way. All you’ve got to do is pray.

    Oh, and in case you’re wondering, the final vote on the resolution “We Define Truth” was 15-33 for the negation 🙂

    “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. ‘” John 14:6.

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    Critiquing A Common Faith: The Problems with Man-Made Morality

    In the present era, few things have been so assailed as tradition and orthodoxy. In the perduring words of John Courtney Murray, “We will not tolerate the idea of an orthodoxy. That is, we refuse to say, as a people: There are truths, and we hold them, and these are the truths.” Instead, a cobbling together of newfangled creeds and ever-growing, frequently contradictory convictions is occurring on a near day by day basis as a carrying capacity of the culture endeavors to construct what resembles nothing so much as the ethical equivalent of Frankenstein’s monster. However, this desire for a man-made morality is not new. For over a century, a dedicated effort has been made to wipe away the horizon and unchain humanity from the stultifying sun of moral absolutism. One deceptively decorous encapsulation of that very ideological enterprise is John Dewey’s seminal 1934 work A Common Faith. Its principle thesis? Mankind must divest itself of its callow adherence to a fictitious supernatural entity who, by his supposed omniscience and omnipotence, has stymied social change and inveigled men into adhering to outdated and even immoral ideals. Having done this, they must redirect their religious fervor and fealty to the project of unencumbered human and material improvement. Only then will we see real progress. Only then will we see meaningful change. Or so Dewey claims. And yet, whether that is actually consonant with reality is unclear. Indeed, a very strong case can be made that the price of drinking up the sea has been a mewling and puking society that has inured itself to immorality and is too punch drunk to see or say otherwise. 

    In this paper, I will analyze and evaluate John Dewey’s arguments in A Common Faith, first examining his critiques of traditional religion and its adherents before presenting his proposed “religious” replacement. In response, I will offer a series of theoretical challenges to his position before concluding with a more general evaluation of whether “a common faith” can realistically replace traditional moral orthodoxy. Ultimately, I hope to prove that Dewey’s attempt to replace orthodox morality with a man-made “common faith” is both theoretically and practically insufficient due to its intellectual incoherence and experiential incongruousness.

    At its core, A Common Faith is a reactionary work born of Dewey’s disbelief in and dissatisfaction with the pie in the sky deity who had hitherto been dictating morality. For Dewey, not only has any sort of “unseen power” been thoroughly debunked by a nexus of science and common sense, but religion’s obsequious insistence on “the necessity for a Supernatural Being and for an immortality that is beyond the power of nature” has also been proven to be an out and out hindrance of social progress. He contends that instead of focusing on “the causes of war and of the long list of economic and political injustices and oppressions,” churches have turned their chief attention to paltry moral vices and abuses like “drunkenness, sales of intoxicants, and divorce.” He further argues that even if churches got their act together and went after the serious and present evils of the age, their efforts would be undone by their slavish need to look beyond “man and nature for their remedy.” According to Dewey, no deus ex machina is coming and “The point to be grasped is that, unless one gives up the whole struggle as hopeless, one has to choose between alternatives. One alternative is dependence upon the supernatural; the other, the use of natural agencies.” Unsurprisingly, Dewey prefers the latter; however, he recognizes that the ardor of religious adherents is a uniquely potent force which, if rendered and directed towards certain social aims, could result in incalculable change. Thus, A Common Faith is his attempt to do just that as he endeavors to wrest the religious away from religion and superimpose it elsewhere. However, what he terms “religious,” by his own admission, “denotes nothing in the way of a specifiable entity, either institutional or as a system of beliefs… It denotes attitudes that may be taken toward every object and every proposed end or ideal.” Given this, it is obviously eminently important to establish just what those ends and ideals entail. Unfortunately, here, the wheels begin to fall off the applecart because in eschewing any sort of transcendent being or moral ontic referent, Dewey critically, even fatally, undermines any argument for the existence of or adherence to the very ends and ideals he hopes to direct men towards. 

    Initially, this issue is obscured by Dewey’s efforts to articulate a method for generating and identifying ideal ends through the use of intellect, emotion, and imagination. He writes:

    “There is but one sure road of access to truth—the road of patient, cooperative inquiry operating by means of observation, experiment, record and controlled reflection… The aims and ideals that move us are generated through imagination. But they are not made out of imaginary stuff. They are made out of the hard stuff of the world of physical and social experience.”

    However, this three-fold process is far from full-proof. To begin with, the use of intellectual inquiry does not guarantee a functional or desirable form of morality. Writing on this issue in the latter half of the twentieth-century, atheist philosopher Kai Nielsen put it this way:

    “We have not been able to show that reason requires the moral point of view, or that all really rational persons, unhoodwinked by myth or ideology, need not be individual egoists or classist amoralists. Reason doesn’t decide here. The picture I have painted for you is not a pleasant one. Reflection on it depresses me… Pure practical reason, even with a good knowledge of the facts, will not take you to morality.”

    Nielsen is not alone in thinking this. In truth, when reason is given free rein, morality actually has an irritating habit of running away from us. Rock band King Crimson put it succinctly in their 1969 song “Epitaph,” writing, “Knowledge is a deadly friend / If no one sets the rules / The fate of all mankind I see / Is in the hands of fools.”  In his book Straw Dogs: Thoughts on Humans and Other Animals, Professor John Gray of the London School of Economics and Political Science echoes this sentiment, writing, “The biblical myth of the Fall of Man contains the forbidden truth. Knowledge does not make us free. It leaves us as we have always been, prey to every kind of folly.” Interestingly, Gray is not writing in defense of traditional morality. Quite the opposite, actually. In fact, he goes on to lambast secular humanists (he surely would’ve counted Dewey among their number) for their adherence to what he sees as little more than a masked form of Christianity. He accuses them of being “soft atheists” due to their unwillingness to affirm a political economy that reflects a materialistic worldview—their materialistic worldview. To Gray, they are being ideologically incoherent, crippled by sentimentality and quibbles about morality; however, when the price of coherence is a society where Social Darwinism reigns supreme, most people are willing to grin and bear a little or a lot of inconsistency. Ergo, if irrational emotions are what is needed to check the more Machiavellian tendencies of men, so be it. Thus, Dewey’s second metric for directing us towards ideal ends seems to be vindicated as, if nothing else, a protective measure against run-away realism. Unfortunately, emotions are themselves capable of confusing and corrupting our ideals and ends. 

    Instinctively, we know this to be true. No reasonable person would ever suggest that the mercurial moods of man ought to be the final arbiter of what is right, what is good, or what is moral. Indeed, the ability for something to “move us,” as Dewey describes, says very little, if anything, about the moral worth of any particular endeavor. Incontinence is, after all, a perniciously prevalent affliction—ethical or otherwise according to WebMD—and assuming that every movement is one rife with moral gravitas seriously strains the bounds of credulity. Furthermore, putting that assumption into practice would be inadvisable in the extreme if for no other reason than the simple fact that “an ethics based on instinct will give the Innovator all that he wants and nothing that he does not want.” In fairness to Dewey, he does, at least in passing, acknowledge this problem, writing, “The tendency to convert ends of moral faith and action into articles of intellectual creed has been furthered by a tendency of which psychologists are well aware… Desire has a powerful influence upon intellectual beliefs.” However, he later argues that while “…intense emotion may utter itself in action that destroys institutions… the only assurance of birth of better ones is the marriage of emotion with intelligence.” Sadly, not unlike most marriages today, the union of emotion and intelligence frequently ends in divorce with the former getting the whole kit and kaboodle. In Kant’s Foundations of the Metaphysics of Morals, he describes this showdown as the triumph of inclination over duty and, in conventional terms, it answers to the name of hypocrisy: “When we observe ourselves in any transgression of a duty, we find that we do not actually will that our maxim should become a universal law… we only take the liberty of making an exception to it for ourselves or for the sake of our inclination.” Emotion or inclination, then, cannot be the deciding voice on what we consider an ideal end.  

    Dewey’s final proposed generator/judge of ends and ideals is imagination. He writes, “The aims and ideals that move us are generated through imagination. But they are not made out of imaginary stuff. They are made out of the hard stuff of the world of physical and social experience.” Unfortunately, for the coherent secularist, the world of physical and social experience is inherently, as one poetic philosopher put it, “solitary, poore, nasty, brutish, and short.” Moreover, according to Professor Richard Dawkins, what Dewey terms the “hard stuff” is what it is and imagining otherwise is just a tremendous waste of time:  

    “In a universe of electrons and selfish genes, blind physical forces and genetic replication, some people are going to get hurt, other people are going to get lucky, and you won’t find any rhyme or reason in it, nor any justice. The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil and no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference. As that unhappy poet A.E. Housman put it: ‘For Nature, heartless, witless Nature Will neither care nor know.’ DNA neither cares nor knows. DNA just is. And we dance to its music.”

    Clearly, however much Dewey might wish that Willy Wonka ruled the world, pure imagination trades for very little on the moral marketplace, and meliorism, in point of fact, dies under the knife of determinism. At this point, I hope I have demonstrated that Dewey’s three criteria for generating and judging ideals and ends (intellect, emotion, and imagination) all exhibit rather significant weaknesses in their ability to consistently and coherently deliver anything close to a liveable or functional morality. However, that does not stop Dewey from making a number of claims about ideals and ends, demonstrating that much like a politician, so too is the philosopher equipped to speak from both sides of his mouth.

    Among Dewey’s identified (and thoroughly unsubstantiated) ends and ideals are “human-association, art, and knowledge,” all of which he claims are readily apparent on a natural basis, giving him leave to say “we need no external criterion and guarantee for their goodness.” Of course not. How silly to think otherwise. Never mind that the mafia is a human association, pornography a form of “art,” and knowledge a key component in building the atomic bomb. Clearly, these are all guaranteed goods. Now, I will concede that given the fact that Dewey wrote A Common Faith in 1934, those are all anachronistic examples, and it is certainly not for me to say whether or not Dewey might have been willing to revise some of his espoused self-evident ideals. Indeed, he very clearly leaves space for robust revision within the pages of his work. “There is no special subject-matter of belief that is sacrosanct,” after all, and modifying morality is part and parcel to being a proper philosopher. 

    Dewey more or less makes the former point outright, asserting that his principal concern is to “press home the logic of disposal of outgrown traits of past religions,” claiming that all prevailing beliefs and practices are “relative to the present state of culture.” In essence, he is an advocate of bailing out the socially relative bathwater and while a baby or too might get the boot, well, in “the present state of the culture,” we are all about a woman’s right to choose.  Interestingly, Dewey does not seem to realize that in endorsing a perpetually pending conception of morality, he sows the seeds of immobilizing insecurity and uncertainty, inadvertently undermining any kind of call to action. In his 1909 work Orthodoxy, G.K. Chesterton diagnoses this apparently perennial problem, writing: 

    “But the new rebel is a skeptic, and will not entirely trust anything. He has no loyalty; therefore he can never be really a revolutionist. And the fact that he doubts everything really gets in his way when he wants to denounce anything. For all denunciation implies a moral doctrine of some kind; and the modern revolutionist doubts not only the institution he denounces, but the doctrine by which he denounces it… In short, the modern revolutionist, being an infinite skeptic, is always engaged in undermining his own mines… Therefore the modern man in revolt has become practically useless for all purposes of revolt. By rebelling against everything he has lost his right to rebel against anything.”

    Thus, while Dewey claims that new and improved moral epiphanies can serve as “standing grounds” for successive societies, the constant skepticism and scrutiny that is baked into the common faith cake lays a foundation of sand instead of cement, making the whole enterprise an exercise in frustration and futility. Moreover, setting aside the previously proven point that a “common faith” cannot reliably provide coherent and cogent ideals or morally defensible ends, the aforementioned problem of inaction born of insecurity is further exacerbated by Dewey’s erasure of man’s eternal source of accountability. 

    Within the pages of A Common Faith, it is readily apparent that Dewey believes that men have been more or less scared into submission by a non-existent supernatural entity. To him, the coercive nature which begets supposedly good behavior diminishes the value of the behavior altogether. He claims that “ the reverence shown by a free and self-respecting human being is better than the servile obedience rendered to an arbitrary power by frightened men.” I completely agree. However, free men are not necessarily good men. Indeed, in the immortal words of James Madison, “If men were angels, no government would be necessary,” and even then, oftentimes governments, be they earthly or eternal, fail to control what Dewey himself calls the “bestial” tendencies of men. I think Poet Samuel Johnson put it best when he said, “With respect to original sin, the inquiry is not necessary; for whatever is the cause of human corruption, men are evidently and confessedly so corrupt, that all the laws of heaven and earth are insufficient to restrain them from their crimes.” If neither the laws of heaven nor earth can control men, it seems patently absurd to suggest that a cobbled together and constantly fluctuating “common faith” could compel them to do anything at all. Furthermore, even if it could, compulsory compassion is anathematic under Dewey’s anti-coercion paradigm. Thus, Dewey ends in a rut, unable to deny that “Atheism inevitably, in the moral sphere, leaves unanswered the question what obliges us, what forces us–not what persuades us–what forces us to behave as we should?” 

    In the end, Dewey’s attempt to present man with a concept of morality unmoored from any foundational beliefs or principles simply misses the mark. His vision of a common faith cannot construct convictions; it eschews creeds, and the nexus of those two factors leaves it largely without teeth. In essence, Dewey knocked the bottom off the boat and set off across the tempestuous sea, confident in his philosophy, but I think C.S. Lewis put it best when he said: “In a sort of ghastly simplicity we remove the organ and demand the function. We make men without chests and expect of them virtue and enterprise. We laugh at honour and are shocked to find traitors in our midst. We castrate and bid the geldings be fruitful.” Ultimately, the realization of a common faith would require one of two things. The first, and what I believe is the most likely and most objectionable, would be the abandonment of Dewey’s provision for personal autonomy. In that scenario, people would be freed from the oppressive hand of their non-existent deity and benevolently dragged kicking and screaming towards the font of blessings that is limitless progress and eternal relativism. While I think many people, especially in this day in age, are more than willing to go that route, I genuinely believe that John Dewey would consider that a tragedy and a perversion of his philosophy. Actually, I think he would probably distance himself from any movement that tried to benevolently cram its creeds and beliefs down the throats of dissenters, no matter how well-meaning the crammers may be. The far more palatable answer for Dewey, though the more impossible one for me, when it comes to fixing the gaping holes in his philosophy, would be a cure for the wickedness of the human heart because, at bottom, I believe that A Common Faith is predicated on Dewey’s belief in the inherent goodness of humanity. Unfortunately, that is something that history has disproved time and time again. Thus, ultimately, to be anywhere close to feasible, A Common Faith would require the triumph of hope over experience, and while I cannot fault Mr. Dewey for his optimism, I can and do fault him for his ignorance.

    Religion in America. Fall 2019. Grade Earned: A

    Happy 2020! It’s Time to Fintago!

    I’ve always been a bit of a nerd, especially when it comes to words. As a child, I never met a dictionary I didn’t like, and upon learning of the existence of the synonym button, the lives of every teacher I had (save my math teachers) got significantly worse. We will never know how many times “big” needlessly became “Bunyenesque” in my fifth grade history papers, but we all have our silent shames and moments of middle school mortification–so they’re you go.

    All that to say, I have now achieved my childhood dream of creating a word all my own, and you guessed it!

    That word is fintago.

    Now, my favorite language arts teacher ever, Ms. O’Malley, would probably be mildly annoyed that I in no way appealed to any Greek or Latin root words in order to accomplish this feat (best book for that here). Instead, I went the German route and just Frankensteined the words I wanted to convey a pretty straightforward message.

    Find. Take. Go.

    Fintago: verb, fintagoed, fintagoing. The act of finding your mark, taking aim, and hurtling towards your chosen target in full-on Forrest Gump fashion. Fintago.

    I thought this was a relevant accomplishment to share given that we are now in a New Year because it’s resolution time! AKA fintagoing season.

    By now, you’ve probably already compiled a list of things you want to accomplish in the New Year.

    Unless you’re a hardcore procrastinator.

    Like me. *grins*

    Either way, by close of day today, most people will have fintagoed their way into guzzling a kale-egg white-spirulina smoothie, pumping more iron than Arnold at the gym, saran wrapping their wallets shut, and/or doing a whole host of other things they’ve been waiting the last 350-ish days to do!

    Why have the been waiting 350-ish days?

    Well, because January 11th 2019 (the second Friday of the month) was National Quitter’s Day. i.e. the day where the gallon bucket of Ben&Jerry’s was put back in the cart, every gym membership was cancelled, and wallets everywhere were freed from their planet-killing confines.

    “Next year,” you said. “In 2020, I’ll try again.”

    It’s 2020, friend.

    Yet, sadly, it’s really true what they say:

    “The more things change, the more they stay the same.”

    So come next Friday (plus or minus a few days), a good chunk of fintago-ers will have abandoned their various self-improvement projects with a wince and a wave, resigning themselves to walking as shamefaced quitters into the brand the new decade.

    But not you!

    Because I am going to share my full-proof plan for making sure you don’t throw in the towel again.

    And it’s actually pretty simple. Because, at bottom, there are just THREE main reasons why people tend to give up on their “New Year-New Me” dreams, and once you get them nailed down, you’ll be ready to really fintago instead of falling into the quitter’s limbo.

    So! Without further ado, here are the three major fintagoing pitfalls and my suggestions about how you can make sure they don’t get their hooks in you!

    Pitfall #1: Your Resolution Is Too Shallow

    In his book Man’s Search for Meaning, Dr. Viktor Frankl quotes Friedrich Nietzsche, writing, “He who has a why to live, can bear almost any how.” Now, while Dr. Frankl was writing about surviving the Holocaust (which is obviously a very different kettle of fish from sticking to one’s New Year’s resolutions), the principle still applies!

    Oftentimes, when we make New Year’s resolutions, they go no further than the what level of understanding. You know…

    Eat Healthy. Get Fit. Save Money. etc.

    And those are all great!

    But they’re also all pretty shallow, and while they might be good goals, without a compelling why, the what of those resolutions is probably not going to be strong enough to get you through the bumps and slumps that life loves to throw around.

    I’ll give you an example.

    One of my resolutions this year is to read through the book of Proverbs at least twice. That is what I intend to do. That is the what of my resolution.

    But I can tell you right now, if that is as deep as my resolution goes, I’m going to be hitting snooze with the rest of world next Friday because while I may have a good goal, that alone is not going to be enough to get my butt out of bed on the days when the last thing I want to do is get up early to read my devotional.

    However, with a compelling why thrown in, I stand a much, much better chance of resuscitating my will to awaken at 6:30 in the morning in order to read my Bible.

    So… my simple fix to a shallow resolution is this:

    Solution #1: Write Down The What Of Your Resolution And Then Tack On A “because…”

    Here’s mine:

    I’m going to read through Proverbs at least twice because I want everything I think, say, and do to be seasoned with salt, light, and wisdom so that I can positively influence both my close circle of friends and family as well as my wider community.

    See the difference?

    Try doing that with your resolutions and let me know how it goes! I’d love to hear from you 😀

    Now, on to pitfall number two!

    Pitfall #2: Your Resolution Is Too Simple

    Confession time: Cultiv8ing Character was supposed to be up and running last year. Specifically in May of last year. Yeah… that didn’t happen.

    Why?

    Because from the outset, I’d oversimplified.

    See, the Sarah with stars in her eyes who told her parents in April, “I’m going to start a blog” didn’t realize that websites don’t just pop out of thin air, and by the time the stars had fallen from my eyes, I’d almost given up half a dozen times.

    Between figuring out WordPress, website design, hosting, basic coding, Mailchimp, and all the rest, it is a wonder I didn’t quit or stick my foot through the front end of my laptop in sheer frustration.

    And I know I can’t be alone in feeling this way!

    In fact, I would bet that almost all fintago-ers experience some kind of resolution disillusionment at one point or another since odds are they’re endeavoring to do something they’ve either never actually done before or never successfully done before, and that means the details of how they should go about it are going to be murky.

    I may have failed my driver’s test over four times, but even I know that if you’re driving more or less blind, the best thing you can do is pull off to the side.

    I mean, unless you want to die.

    But I don’t want either of those things for you!

    I want you flying down the road, clear-sighted and confident, accomplishing your goals one by one and having fun along the way!

    So… What can be done?

    Solution #2: Get Specific. Ignorance Is NOT Bliss.

    No matter how simple, straightforward, easy, or obvious your resolution may appear, it is so important to get clear on as many of its bits and pieces as possible.

    Otherwise, you’re going to be taken by surprise by something, whether it be the taste of food absent high fructose corn syrup, the time it takes to do more than a zombie shuffle around the gym, and/or the amount of money you need to squirrel away to even think about retiring one day.

    In any of these cases, and in countless others, being caught unawares will only bring you that much closer to celebrating National Quitter’s Day as you’re handed an excuse to say, “Well, I didn’t know I’d have to do x, y, or z, so right now, this resolution just isn’t feasible for me.”

    If you do that, I will know, and I will come find you, you limp noodle.

    So do your due diligence and either research the bits and pieces of your resolution yourself or ask someone more informed than you about the things you’re going to need to do.

    If you have to postpone your start date in order to do this, so be it!

    Better to start in later and informed rather than be early and ignorant because, speaking from personal experience, the frustration that follows ignorance in action is the number one enemy of effort and achievement bar none, especially if you feel you’re going it alone.

    Which brings me to the final pitfall…

    Pitfall #3: Your Resolution Is A Secret.

    If your resolution is a secret, you’re not going to keep it. Period.

    I know. I know. It’s disheartening that we have so little self-control that we can’t even manage to hold to our own self-imposed goals, but there you go.

    The truth hurts.

    But thankfully, as with pitfall number one, the solution is super simple!

    Solution #3: Accountability. Accountability. Accountability.

    You must–YOU MUST–tell people your resolutions.

    Seriously, if you do nothing else on this list, do this because accountability is so, so key if you want to succeed past a couple of weeks.

    HOWEVER.

    While I 100% believe telling someone is better than telling no one, I would strongly recommend you look for two categories of people when you go to share because these groups will hold you accountable like no other.

    They are:

    1. People you respect.
    2. People who love you enough to want more for you.

    Why these two groups?

    Well, because they respectively cover the passive and active forms of accountability better than any other.

    Basically, once you tell these people your resolutions, you 1) really won’t want to let the people you respect down, and 2) the people who love you enough to want more for you will actively help you turn your life around.

    Thus, both intrinsic and extrinsic reasons for sticking to your resolutions will have been secured, hopefully keeping you from falling prey to National Quitter’s Day!

    Hurray!

    Oh, in the spirit of accountability, here are my current resolutions for 2020:

    1. Read through Proverbs at least twice because I want everything I think, say, and do to be seasoned with salt, light, and wisdom so that I can positively influence both my close circle of friends and family as well as my wider community.
    2. Post 52 blog posts on CC, ideally one every week, because I want to become a better writer and reflector whilst improving my time management skills and self-discipline.
    3. Finish the Young Adult Fantasy-Adventure novel I’ve had cooking for the last FOUR YEARS and query it because I want to prove to myself that I can complete a full-length, quality piece of fiction and have a shot at being traditionally published.

    I really hope these tips and tricks help you stick to your resolutions and fintago your way into this New Year and new decade, but do remember, friends, no matter what happens next Friday, it is never, ever, too late to change.

    An Uncommon Life Well Lived

    Matthew Gerdisch came into my life in the third grade. A cute, new boy from Chicago, Illinois, he was a noteworthy addition to my elementary school class of maybe forty students, and within a few weeks, he had been more or less adopted into the Sycamore third grade family. 

    I was not so welcoming. 

    Truthfully, my standoffish reaction had nothing to do with Matthew and everything to do with the fact that at that age, I was fiercely possessive of my small group of friends and exceedingly wary of newcomers. And yet, he somehow managed to wiggle his way in.

    It took a minute, mind you, but Matthew was uncommonly persistent. And today, I’m forever thankful that, even then, he was fiercely committed to making new friends, and yet, what made Matthew special wasn’t just that he uncommonly came into my life but that he uncommonly remained as well. 

    For twelve years, Matthew Gerdisch was in my orbit. In the beginning, our relationship was marked by a tempestuous on-again, off-again third grade romance. In middle school, it mercifully evolved into a comfortable kind of camaraderie where I teased him about his attempts to embody an abercrombie model and he retaliated by squirting me with silver nitrate during science class. 

    Honestly, those years were some of the best times of my life, but by the time eighth grade rolled around, I was ready for a change. See, I wasn’t especially proud of the person I’d been in middle school. At the time, I felt I had more than a few skeletons that I was ready to leave behind, and high school, especially a boarding school sequestered in the northern cornfields of Indiana, would provide me ample opportunity for reinvention. Cutting ties seemed the natural thing to do, and whether intentionally or accidentally, the friendships that had sustained me from before pre-school to the brink of high school almost all fell through.   

    Matthew was a notable exception. Distance and diverging interests ensured that our communications and interactions weren’t very frequent or long-winded, but there was a rhythm to them and an understanding that we could always pick up where we left off. 

    I spent this last week trying to put my finger on why this might’ve been—why Matthew was different—and in the eighth book of the Nicomachean Ethics, Master Aristotle gave me an answer. In his view, there are three kinds of friends: utility friends, pleasure friends, and goodness friends. The first two are accidental and therefore easily dissolved. The final is the kind that can last a lifetime. 

    Matthew was a goodness friend—not just to me—but to many. In saying this, I know I’m diverging from Aristotelian canon, but to be honest, Master A never met Matthew. I think the latter would’ve blown the former’s mind because while, for a majority of people, love is conditional, predicated on proximity, pleasure, or personal and pecuniary interests, Matthew loved people for their sake. I mean, he certainly didn’t love me for his sake. Good grief, Matthew was many things but a masochist wasn’t one of them, and I definitely didn’t make myself easily loveable what with being a snotty elementary school kid, an insecure middle school girl, and a remote relic shut up in a northern Indiana cornfield. Yet at every stage, Matthew managed to make me feel like I mattered, and that’s why his friendship had such tremendous staying power.  

    So when I learned last Saturday that he’d passed away, it felt like a hole had been punched in my chest as I realized that this boy who uncommonly came and uncommonly remained was, now, uncommonly gone. 

    There’s no name for someone who loses a child, a little brother, a love, or a friend. It’s not supposed to go that way, and God and I have had words the last few days because while I know that Matthew is living now in the light of eternity, the rest of us are living in light of tremendous loss. 

    What are we meant to do now that he’s gone? How are we meant to go on?

    I have no easy answers, but I’ll share my thoughts simply because, at the end of the day, all of us who knew him have a say in whether Matthew becomes a memory or a legacy. You mourn a memory. You live a legacy. And I’m pretty sure Matthew would’ve preferred the latter. 

    So do as he did. Love persistently. Give generously. See the good in people—not just the bad. End every call with “I love you to infinity and beyond.” And know that somewhere out there, Gerdyboy is cheering you on.

    He lived an uncommon life, but it was a life well and truly lived.

    We have the opportunity to make sure it doesn’t end with him.

    Matthew, it was an honor and a privilege to call you my friend, and I cannot wait for the day I get to see you again.

    “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4

    March for Life 2019: “Unique from Day One”

    This year, the theme for The March for Life is “Unique from Day One.”

    I thought a lot about the truth of this phrase and its multifaceted significance when it was first announced. But from the start, I found my thoughts returning to a segment of the population that I believe uniquely embodies the message “Unique from Day One,” and whose existence and flourishing, I believe, makes the pro-life case better than other.

    These are individuals with disabilities.

    I spent this last semester thinking a lot about what it means to have a disability, what it means to care for someone with a disability, what it is to respond to disability, etc.

    Initially, my curiosity was piqued because of my enrollment in an American Sign Language course, but through a series of random incidents, my interest ballooned.

    I started following blogs, reading books, and watching youtube videos dedicated to people living with physical and/or mental disabilities.

    Full disclosure: In my life, I’ve encountered little more than a handful of individuals living with some sort of serious disability (so I am in no way an authority on the subject), but in the latter half of 2018, I was quickly made aware of just how profound my ignorance was.

    The breadth and the magnitude of disabilities that are experienced by millions of people around the world are staggering. But the responses to these disabilities are equally so, both in their beauty and in their cruelty.

    Well known evolutionary biologist Richard Dawkins once famously responded to a question about children prenatally diagnosed with down syndrome by saying, “Abort it and try again. It would be immoral to bring it into the world if you have the choice.”

    Everytime I think about that, air whooshes out of my lungs like I’ve just been kicked in the chest, and I think to myself, “What a thing to say. What a thing to believe.”

    But Dawkins is hardly alone.

    Last year, an op-ed written in the Washington Post said virtually the same thing. After bemoaning the difficulties of raising a child with down syndrome, deputy editor Ruth Marcus wrote, “I’m going to be blunt here: That was not the child I wanted. That was not the choice I would have made. You can call me selfish, or worse, but I am in good company.”

    I’d assume that Marcus would find Iceland to the be the best of company given that it has virtually “eradicated” down syndrome, boasting a 100% termination rate for children prenatally diagnosed. There, the stigma of keeping a child diagnosed with down syndrome is far greater than the stigma of killing one.

    But down syndrome is a drop in the bucket of disabilities, and as prenatal testing becomes more affordable, exhaustive, and accurate, this “abort and try, try again” philosophy is set to unapologetically swallow the entire spectrum of children with disabilities.

    The thought of this never fails to make me shake with disgust and with despair.

    A disability should not be a death sentence, but right now, we are selectively pruning our citizenry without shame and flirting with wide-spread eugenics in a real and horrifying way.

    Margaret Sanger would be proud.

    We should be ashamed.

    Today, I am marching for life.

    Beyond that, I am marching for all the people with disabilities, born and unborn, who are targeted within a culture that is willing to kill for the sake of control and convenience.

    However, I would be remiss if I did not acknowledge my three biggest inspirations: Peyton, John, and Anthony. They are living proof that life is beautiful in every iteration.

    Peyton is a vibrant nine-year-old with Bixler syndrome, an incredibly rare genetic disorder that causes deformity and malformation of the skeleton and greater body, leading to rapid and dangerous overheating. She is also deaf. When asked what the best thing about being her is, Peyton replied, “God made me special. God said, ‘I want her nose to be like this. I want her ears to be like this—I want her to have fairy ears.’ And I was born with a cleft, and He said, ‘That’s fine!’”

    John Hudson Dilgen is a teenager living with Epidermolysis Bullosa or “Butterfly Skin,” a condition that leaves him with less than half his skin and causes what remains to blister, bleed, and ooze, risking chronic infection. It is an excruciating and currently incurable condition, but even so, when asked what the purpose of his life is, John replied, “Everything happens for a reason. And every once and a while, I meet someone, and they say that I’ve helped them… If this is the payment for helping other people, then bring it on.”

    Anthony is a twelve-year-old who survived an HOUR without oxygen as an infant. Currently, he is non-verbal and confined to a wheelchair. When asked how much she loves Anthony, his mom tearfully replied, “He is my world… He has truly changed my life for the better. Because of him, I see love differently. The way he loves people is indescribable, and that has helped me to love other people differently.”

    There are some that would say people like Peyton, John, and Anthony are a burden. They’ll evasively suggest that the world, as an aggregate of individual experiences, would be better off without them. Lives would be easier. Cheaper. Better.

    These people see only a burden—not a blessing.
    They see disability instead of dignity.
    They see a choice—not a child.

    It is my sincerest wish that this will change, and I hope and pray that one day we will see the blessing before the burden, the dignity instead of the disability, and the child—not the choice.

    “This life’s dim windows of the soul
    Distorts the heavens from pole to pole
    And leads you to believe a lie
    When you see with, not through, the eye.”
    — William Blake

    Motives Maketh Man: The Problem of Mixed Motives in Military Intervention

    Abstract. ーIn Just and Unjust Wars, Michael Walzer presents “mixed motives” as an inescapable element of military interventions and argues that their ubiquity prevents just war judgements from hanging on their influence. This paper presents Walzer’s position before analyzing the various pitfalls posed by his characterization of “mixed motives,” most notably with respect to his assumption of moral pluralism and the threat “mixed motives” pose to jus ad bellum conditions.  

    The late Canadian Economist and Diplomat John Kenneth Galbraith once said, “The modern conservative is engaged in one of man’s oldest exercises in moral philosophy; that is, the search for a superior moral justification for selfishness.” After reading Michael Walzer’s commentary and arguments on military interventions, it seems that the same can sadly be said of the modern just war theorist. In his chapter on interventions, Walzer makes two more or less non-arguments which lend credence to this indictment. The first is a subtle evasion of any phraseology that would make military intervention compulsory. While Walzer provides multiple concrete examples of when intervention is permissible, he never goes as far as to say it is imperative, leaving the decision of whether or not to wage war to whomever is in power. His hedging is likely due to the second, arguably more central, issue: his milquetoast addressment of mixed motives. Unwilling to appeal to any moral ontic referent, Walzer, instead of salvaging an argument for just intentions, engages in little more than rhetorical hand wringing before concluding that since mixed motives are ostensibly an indelible fact of life, just war judgements cannot hang on their influence. In this paper, I will argue that Walzer’s broad characterization of military intervention as optional rather than obligatory is a downstream effect of his permissiveness towards the problem of mixed motives that together create a situation where jus ad bellum is severely compromised and morally defensible, even requisite, desertion necessarily follows. 

    “War is hell.” This is one of Michael Walzer’s early refrains in Just and Unjust Wars, and an enduring and relevant aphorism in the realm of war ethics. After all, if “war is hell,” entering in ought not be taken lightly. Indeed, it begs the question: why go to war at all? Now, in instances of self-defense, the answer is quite obvious. A wrong has been received, creating “just cause,” and military redress is therefore permitted. However, when the fight is external, belonging to another nation or people, the answer becomes a good deal murkier, moving beyond the realm of self-defense and rapidly into the realm of self-interest. It is for this reason that fairly narrow circumstances must exist for one nation to justifiably violate the sovereign boundaries of another. 

    In his chapter on military interventions, Walzer argues that there are three distinct circumstances, or “just causes,” for violating the sovereign boundaries of another nation: secession, civil war, and humanitarian intervention. However, while delineating the reasons why it would be permissible to intervene in each of these instances, at no point does he claim it would be morally obligatory to do so, going as far as to say, “Even if counter-intervention is ‘honorable and virtuous,’ it is not morally required, precisely because of the dangers it involves.” He then goes on to say that even in cases of severe human rights violations, military intervention is a “right” of the intervening state rather than an imperative: “Any state capable of stopping the slaughter has a right, at least, to try to do so.” Thus, according to Walzer, while states might be permitted to intervene in cases of secession, civil war, or humanitarian violations, they do not have a moral duty to do so. Unfortunately, in the absence of duty, desires are all that can move men to action, and it is from this pragmatic position that the issue of “mixed motives” emerges. 

    For Walzer, the term “mixed motives” actually carries a dual significance, describing two distinct yet related phenomena. The first, and perhaps more obvious of the two, is the idea of normatively mixed motivations (i.e. a blend of altruistic and avaricious motives underlie the decision to intervene). In his book, Walzer gives the example of The United States’ intervention in Cuba which was undertaken both as a relief effort and as a means of securing the U.S.’s economic and strategic interests. Another example of this kind of “mixed motive” is Hernan Cortes’ decision to lay siege to the Aztec capital of Tenochtitlan which, in addition to ending the Aztec practice of human sacrifice, also resulted in the amassment of a significant amount of gold for the Spaniards.  Both of these instances are examples of the normatively mixed motives that often undergird military intervention. However, there is another way in which the term “mixed motives” can be understood and, indeed, is understood by Michael Walzer, and it derives from his positive understanding of morality as inherently pluralistic. 

    He alludes to this in Just and Unjust Wars, writing, “The judgements we make in cases such as this don’t hang on the fact that considerations other than humanity figured in the government’s plans, or even on the fact that humanity was not the chief consideration. I don’t know if it ever is, and measurement is especially difficult in a liberal democracy where the mixed motives of the government reflect the pluralism of the society…” He makes this point more clearly in his article on the problem of “dirty hands” in politics wherein he writes that morality is a communal phenomenon “constituted at least in part by rules, the knowing of which (and perhaps the making of which) we share with our fellows.” It is here that Walzer’s belief in the democratization of morality is more fully on display, but whether he applies this principle to war or politics, the fact remains that in doing so, he tacitly endorses moral relativism, precluding any kind of moral duty for military intervention and thereby enshrining normatively mixed motives as an insurmountable element of just war reasonsing. Unfortunately, the problems with this position are significant.

    To begin with, mixed motives necessarily diminish the ultimate rectitude of any military intervention in which they have a hand. In Foundations of the Metaphysics of Morals, Immanuel Kant provides a general principle to this effect, contending that while potentially honorable and praiseworthy, good actions driven by “inclination” are inherently inferior to those dictated by duty. Given that Walzer denies any duty of military intervention, all actions taken under his paradigm must be understood to be inclination driven which, by Kant’s reasoning, makes them morally deficient. What’s more, this criticism does not even consider the larger issue of morally objectionable motives in military interventions or the effect they have on the tenability of Walzer’s argument.

    The fact of the matter is almost every nation that engages in military interventions is doing so in order to advance their own interests. While circumstances like secession, civil war, or humanitarian violations may provide a righteous veneer, states’ reasons for involving themselves and risking the lives and censure of their own citizens are almost always pragmatic. Walzer himself acknowledges this, writing, “States don’t send their soldiers into other states, it seems, only in order to save lives. The lives of foreigners don’t weigh that heavily on the scales of domestic decision-making.” In this respect, calling the motives nations have to wage war “mixed” in the normative sense might actually be too generous. 

    In Introducing Moral Theology, William Mattison makes this point: “It is surely the case that we commonly have many reasons to do a certain act. But remember that intentions are properly understood to be action guiding… Sometimes different circumstances may reveal that we would not have done the act, and that does indeed reveal something about our true intentions.” Given that foreign lives are always being lost when questions of intervention arise, if Walzer is correct that states don’t send their soldiers into other states only to save those lives, the inciting, or “action guiding,” motive for military intervention must then rest, not on moral considerations, but on material circumstances. Thus, what Walzer has termed “mixed motives” may actually be better understood as fixed motives (i.e. the political or pecuniary interests of the state) which have merely been vindicated by so-called “just causes.” 

    The ramifications of this proposition cannot be understated. In his Second Relectio, Francisco De Vitoria makes clear that neither expansion nor glory are “just causes” of war. Therefore, if it is in fact the case that “mixed motives” are little more than a front for the avaricious aims of a particular nation or individual, the justness of a war, per the “right intention” condition of jus ad bellum, is quickly and critically compromised, and when jus ad bellum is no longer assured, a cascade of adverse effects necessarily follows. 

    The first is that political and military leaders, being intent on appearing “just,” become invested in obfuscating the real or “fixed” motives behind military interventions, offering platitudes and “… ‘rendering reasons,’ though not always honest ones.” Their dishonesty creates a situation where the servicemen and women under their command must be and are kept intentionally ignorant of the true nature of their intervention. However, when it comes to ongoing military engagements, ignorance is rarely, if ever, invincible, and as soldiers become aware of the “mixed” and unjust conditions under which they are fighting, disillusionment and morally defensible desertion are quick to follow.  Now, it is understood that desertion in wartime is no small matter; however, when jus ad bellum conditions have not been met, such as in the case of mixed motives, desertion becomes not just morally defensible, but potentially obligatory. In Killing in War, Jeff McMahan argues that combatants fighting under unjust ad bellum conditions have an obligation to desert or surrender, writing, “To surrender individually, without an order from a superior and without being compelled to do so by the enemy, could count as desertion. Yet if the war is objectively unjust, this may be what morality requires.” McMahan’s exhortation levies a tremendous burden on unjust combatants, including those fighting under dubiously just conditions. Therefore, it is absolutely imperative that the problem posed by “mixed motives” not go unasked or unanswered, and rather than simply yielding to the reluctant realism of Walzer, it may be time for an atavistic revision–a reversion to an ethic of war where rather than being pragmatically deployed for greed or glory, military intervention is instead seen as a harbinger of peace that is both characterized and compelled by compassion.

    Just Wars. Fall 2019. Grade Earned: B

    An Aisle Away

    On August 10th 2019, I hopped on a flight from D.C. to Indianapolis with no real thought of God except to ask Him for a safe trip home. In the words of Michael Ramsden, “I don’t like flying, but it keeps my prayer life healthy.” 

    I had no idea that that particular flight would end with me praying over a total stranger for the first time, and I never would have thought I’d hear the voice of God for the second time in my life, but “Well done, good and faithful servant” came through loud and clear.

    I hope this encourages someone because boy oh boy did it encourage me 🙂

    Here’s what happened:

    At approximately 7:15pm, I boarded my sparsely populated American Airlines flight back home and got situated in seat 15C. There was another girl next to me, but the aisle across had only one person—an older woman who was pressed against the window.

    Right after we were told to turn off our devices or put them on airplane mode, the woman asked me if she could borrow my phone to call her brother—she needed to let him know that she had gotten put on a different flight and would be arriving home three hours early.

    I said sure and offered her my phone. 

    She made the call, and even though I wasn’t trying to eavesdrop, I was able to glean that she was upset.

    But hey. It was none of my business. So when she handed me back my phone, I popped my headphones in, sent up a takeoff prayer, and started reading Guzik’s commentary on Matthew 27. 

    Fast forward to about 8:05pm. The very friendly flight attendant was going around asking if anyone wanted something to drink. I asked for ice-less water and got back to silently reciting “The Parable of The Madman.”

    A few minutes later, the friendly flight attendant returned with my water, but he also had a handful of paper towels clenched in his hand. He handed them to the woman across the aisle.

    She was crying.

    And man oh man did a spirit of conviction start to pound against my chest. 

    Unbidden, a talk given by Vince Vitake entitled “The Art of Conversation” popped into my head. In it, one of the practices he encourages is talking to people on airplanes about faith and life. After all, your seatmate is a pretty captive audience. 

    At the same time, a scene from the day before came to mind. I was in the car with my dad trying to get out of our neighborhood and to the airport, but no one was letting us in. Over fifty cars passed us by. One after the other. No one so much as hinted at slowing down, and after a good five minutes of waiting, we eventually had to find an alternate route. 

    Afterwards, my dad turned to me and said, “That’s the problem with society today. Everyone is so focused on themselves—they don’t care about anyone else.”

    I stared at that woman across the aisle of American Airlines flight 4634 for a solid minute, trying to convince myself that talking to her would be weird and uncomfortable and maybe she just had a cold and the seatbelt light was on anyways… etc. 

    Finally, the Holy Spirit said, “Sarah, get your butt out of that seat, across the aisle, and talk to her. Now.”

    I got off my butt, went across the aisle, and tapped her on the arm.

    “Are you okay?”

    She didn’t reply right away.

    “What’s your name?” I asked, hopping to fill the void. She said something, but I couldn’t quite make it out. “Sydney?” I asked.

    “Cindy.”

    I smiled, both relieved and delighted. “That’s my mom’s name! I’m Sarah.”

    She blinked. “My daughter’s name is Sarah.”

    We wore identical expressions of surprise and disbelief.

    And then she told me her story.

    It had everything. Divorce. Distance. Disappointment. Drama. Disability. Adoption. Abuse. Love. And a recent, tragic loss.

    Then she told me of her other children. Of the care she put into naming them, listing them from youngest on up until she got to her eldest—her daughter Sarah.

    “… and Sarah Christine—“

    I didn’t give her a chance to finish.

    “MY name’s Sarah Christine!”

    She blinked. I blinked. I’m pretty sure my shout woke up the sleeping lady in front of us who also probably blinked. 

    “You’re kidding,” she said.

    I shook my head. “I’ll show you my ID.”

    And then the plane started its descent, and I felt like I had to HAD TO pray over her.

    I asked. She accepted. And I prayed over a not so total stranger for the first time in a seat that wasn’t mine while being partially blinded by the fluorescent airplane lights.

    And friends, what an incredible ride.

    If nothing else, I got a reminder that God has a sense of humor, but truly, more than anything, I was reminded that stepping out in obedience, even if it’s uncomfortable or weird or the seatbelt light is on, is what being a Christian is all about.